Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Masturbation

I love to masturbate! If that wasn't emphatic enough, let me say it again. I love masturbation! I love everything about it. I like talking about it. I like doing it. I like seeing both men and women do it. I'm even collecting solo sex toys for men (there's not that many out there). I primarily use a Fleshlight, but if I'm in the mood, I also like to occassionally experiment with anal play (butt plugs and dildos).

Here is a video for you Christians that think masturbation is a "sin." I used to believe that, too, and it caused me years of pain and suffering - not to mention needless guilt - as I struggled with my own strong sex drive.



As far back as I can remember, I've always been fond of fondling myself. I would lay on my back in bed, with my two brothers sleeping on either side of me, and I would quietly slide my pants and underwear down to my ankles, and touch myself. I would play with my then pinky-sized penis, and would roll my balls in between my fingers and how good that felt, even prior to reaching puberty. I would run my fingers down the shaft of my tiny "wee-wee" and pull my foreskin back and fully expose my glans. It was so sensitive to the touch. I knew by then what circumcision was and wondered how people that were circumcised dealt with the sensitivity. I mean, it was just "out there" all the time. I can remember the first time I had an orgasm. I think it was after I started watching porn movies that my brother acquired - around the age of 12 or 13. Anyway, I was sitting on the toilet and I was touching myself. I imagined what it would be like to have sex with a girl, so I took my hand and curled it into the shape of a vagina (amazing how I instinctively knew how to do this). I started to rub my penis up and down. It felt so good. I kept on doing it and I could feel something deep inside my loins. I kept it up until I felt something, then braced as I had my first-ever orgasm. It was intense! I've never felt anything like that before. I couldn't remember if any semen came out (probably just a drop or two). Over the course of the next few years, I masturbated constantly, at least every week, usually every couple of days. Then, when I turned 21, I sadly joined a church that disapproved of masturbating (as most of them wrongly do), citing it as "impurity." I stopped masturbating for 2 years straight. Then, I did it again. I slipped up. And I felt so much guilt and shame over it. The next five years after that, I have had a love-hate relationship with it. Now, I've learned that it's natural, normal, and beautiful - and I do it whenever I can. I love it. Love it! Love it! Love it! And I'm never going to stop. Especially now that I know that the Bible verses cited against masturbation are taken out of context (no surprise there).

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Celibacy

Can I be honest about how I feel about this topic? Celibacy sucks.

Thursday, October 24, 2013

My Feelings Towards Erotic Humiliation

Here are some terms for you to look up:
CMNF - clothed male naked female
CFNM - clothed female naked male
ENF - embarrassed naked female


Despite what I said earlier about the human body being nothing to be ashamed of and that people shouldn't worry about being naked, I have a confession to make. I LOVE seeing, reading, and hearing about people (both female and male) being put into embarrassing situations where they are naked, particularly in front of others. It's a fetish of mine. I'm thinking it's a pretty common fetish if the results from my google searches is any indication. I remember playing the arcade game Rampage and my favorite part was (still is, actually) when the monsters' health got all the way down to zero and they would shrink back down and become a human again - naked as the day they were born. I would imagine myself in that situation and the sheer humiliation of having to go through the city that they had only moments before been destroying without a stitch of clothes on. What a thrill! I can just imagine their red faces as they slink back towards the screen edges with their hands tightly covering their privates (presumably into the waiting arms of the authorities).

One of the best arcade games of the '80's.
Personally, I've experienced embarrassing situations where I was naked myself. I remember when I was very young, and I was at my dad's work. He owned a pizza shop, and my mom also worked there. I think I was out of diapers at that time. Anyway, I was sitting on the toilet, and I had finished doing my "business." But I don't think I knew how to wipe my own ass yet - a problem. So, I called out for someone to come help. One of my dad's co-workers heard me and came in and started laughing. He then left, and told someone, who did the same thing. Here I was, a naked little boy with his pants and Transformers underwear around his ankles, who had just got done taking a crap, standing there in front of the toilet with his shriveled little penis on display for everyone to see, confused as all hell about what was going on and why these adults were pointing and laughing at him. One-by-one they came in and did the same thing. The laughed and pointed, and left. Finally, my mom came in and was like, "Why didn't you just ask for me?" I was thinking like, "I don't know. Should I have?" It wasn't embarrassing at the time, probably because I didn't know any better. If I knew then what I know now, I probably would have been traumatized. I know now that I've must have looked incredibly ridiculous. I even remember one of them made the "two-finger" small penis sign. Only now do I look back and realize what they were referring to. Awkward...

Yeah, it was probably smaller than this.
I remember once, when I was a child, I saw a young girl, maybe 5-7 years old, being taken by her mom to the local swimming pool at an apartment complex. Only thing was, she didn't have a bathing suit on. I'm not saying she went in regular clothes, or even in her underwear, she wasn't wearing anything! She was completely naked!! And she looked EMBARRASSED! I remember she was begging her mom to let her put something on or to go back inside the house. The mom just looked like she ignored her or told her to be quiet and enjoy the water. I wondered why a mother would let her child be naked in such a public place. Did she somehow lose her bathing suit and her mom wouldn't buy her another one, so she was made to swim in her birthday suit? She was Hispanic, so perhaps it was a cultural thing? Maybe the mother honestly thought that her child was just being too modest and she had nothing to hide since she hadn't "developed" yet. Or, maybe it was that the kid was being punished, and public nudity and embarrassment were included in her punishment (hey, things were different back then).

Poor Timmy (although, it would have been nice for it to have been a girl, instead).
On a routine physical when I had entered puberty, I had to pull down my pants and shorts to let the doctor examine my..."underbelly." I jumped as his gloved fingers touched my scrotum. After the immense embarrassment of having a stranger touch my most private of parts, I thought I had endured the worst of it. Alas, not so. My dad came back in after the exam. While the he and the doctor were talking, he asked, "Isn't his penis...too small?" I cringed with embarrassment. I did not know my own dad thought that my manhood was small for my age. Great! Now I'll have the thought of my pops thinking I have a baby dick for the rest of my life. Oh, the shame! The doctor simply looked around, then looked directly at my crotch (I was clothed at that time, but at that point, it felt like I was naked all over again). He then said, "I'm not sure...he looked fine to me. Maybe I can refer your question to a urologist." I didn't care about going to a pecker checker. I just wanted to get the hell out of there. That was an awkward drive back home. Thanks, dad.

When I was in Junior High, it was an awkward age, had not yet hit puberty. I was also very shy, and couldn't get myself to even get undressed unto my underwear in front of people. So I had to wait until people cleared the locker room, then I felt comfortable enough to change over. It wasn't long until I caught the attention of some others. They surrounded me while I was changing and wanted to know why I was so shy. They told me that if I didn't stop doing what I was doing, they were going to throw me out of the locker room in my underwear - or worse. I wouldn't call myself a late-bloomer, but I wasn't (and I'm not now) well-endowed. Just on the short side of average. I very reluctantly took off my clothes, and when I pulled down my pants and exposed my undies, one of them said, in Spanish, "Aww, look at how tiny it is." I instantly cringed. Up until then, I was only body shy. Now I was being humiliated about having a penis the size of a little boy's by a group of fuckin' locker room bullies. By that time, my penis may not have grown at all since that whole pizza shop incident! How embarrassing! Why the hell were they there, anyway? Wasn't PE over? I don't know what would have happened if they had stripped me completely naked, but...I kept thinking about it. This kicked off my humiliation fetish. I've fantasized about being stripped naked of my clothes, especially in front of a bunch of girls. How they would laugh at the size of my cock and their beautiful eyes would take in my little pink thingie and my extremely red face. I've gotten off on thinking about how it would feel as then their hands would travel over every inch of my naked flesh, caressing, pinching, teasing, mocking, laughing...oh, my this is getting me horny. Anyway, I eventually got over the fact that I had a small penis and have enjoyed going out naked where it was appropriate - and legal! So what if my penis isn't going to make Playgirl or Penthouse. And it's a thrill to be naked in front of others. Go visit a nude colony or nude beach.

I was in the military at one point in my young adult life and we had what were known as "barracks," which was just a fancy word for living quarters. Anyway, at one point we were living in two towers, females on one side, males on the other. I remember this one time when I was super horny and saw two females in the same room across the way. Well, I don't know what made me do this, but I pulled down my pants and I pushed my hardened penis between two of the blinds. Basically, I was flashing them. They both saw it, and were a bit amused by the spectacle. They both made the small penis sign. I told my friend about it later and he was like, "Hahaha! That's my boy!"

I remember the first time I exposed myself to a friend of mine before we had casual sex. I had already told her that I was small down there and had taken off everything except for my boxers. My legs were shaking and I had the hardest time pulling down my shorts. What would she say? Would she point and burst out laughing? Who would she tell? All of these thoughts were racing through my head. She kept looking at me and asking what was taking me so long. "Please - don't laugh," I pleaded. I eventually built up the courage and pulled my underwear down to my ankles. My cock was erect as I stood up straight, my gaze on the ground, fists and teeth clenched as shame began to wash over me. What was she thinking at that moment? Was she thinking, "Is that it??" Or was she trying to hold back her laughter, knowing that it would hurt my feelings? I braced myself for her reaction. "That's...not small." I opened my eyes and looked at her face. She was looking right at my cock. I walked over to her, and she held it in her hands. Then, I moved her hand down to cup my balls and that's when she took my member in her mouth. You never know what someone will feel about your body until you show them. Even though I told her not to laugh, she soon found out that I dig comments about my size - about how I'm "cute" and about how my small penis compares with others she's seen.

It must be a very awkward feeling to have only your two hands as the only means of protecting your most private of body parts away from the gaze of others
 "Alright, you lost the bet. Come on - it's no big deal. Now drop your shorts and...oh my God YOUR DICK IS SO TINY!! Look at how small he is! I guess I was right - it's not a big deal, at all! Hold on - I need to get a photo of this!" This guy's life is going to get a bit more interesting now.
I couldn't imagine the extreme shame that this poor fellow is experiencing. To have an attractive female openly laughing at his obvious...shortcomings, is no less than devastating. I mean, look at how tiny it is. You have to actually look pretty hard to see it. Makes you wonder how small he is flaccid. Does it even stick out?
Being completely butt-naked in public as punishment? Now that's embarrassing! Hey, I'd vote for that. I wonder what one would need to do to deserve that?
Is that a band-aid over her pussy? I guess it's better than the black or mosaic censor bar.
And for you bronies out there: 

Uh-huh...

Something tells me Princess Luna was behind Discord's shenanigans with Rarity. Karma is a bitch, huh? Hope you have a good cover story for why everyone saw you NAKED at the Grand Galloping Gala!

Here are my thoughts. It's some naughty and sometimes dirty fun. It's a great fantasy that everyone can appreciate. We all have those "embarrassing stories" that we like to bring up. What better embarrassment than with a little nudity? Question for the reader: What about you? What do you feel on this subject?

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Nudists

By far, the most viewed post to date has been about nudity. Don't know why that is. I found two documentaries about nudists. Hope you enjoy.

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Adultery

I made a comment on a YouTube video about this one pastor that says that basically masturbation is okay. And, of course, there are religious nut-jobs all over the comments telling people he's a heretic and that masturbation equals "adultery of the heart" and bringing up the usual scriptures used to condemn "sexual immorality." Anyway, I made a couple of comments and I got an e-mail from the uploader of the video.

Monday, September 16, 2013

Confessions of a confession addict

I answered a question on Yahoo! Answers and decided it was a topic that I needed to address further. The asker was scared that if he didn't confess his sins enough, then he might die with unconfessed sin and end up in Hell. For some reason, a lot of people (including myself at one point in time), think that if you don't confess your sins, then they are still "on" you and they will drag you down into the eternal pit of fire. Here's my response:

Monday, September 2, 2013

Lord, Save Us From Your Followers

Just watched a great documentary, starring a Christian Evangelical, as he goes about the country getting people's opinion about Christians. It's very balanced and takes both sides (Left and Right) into consideration. See the film on Netflix

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Prostitution

The late George Carlin once said, "I do not understand why prostitution is illegal. Why should prostitution be illegal? Selling is legal, fucking is legal. Why isn't selling fucking legal??"

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Palcomix

Looking for 18+ versions of your favorite comic, cartoon and video game characters? Go to Palcomix.com. Been going to this site for a while now. They have a comic section and seven galleries as of the time of this writing. Huge selection of free stuff and some paid options, as well. In the past, they also did commissions for people. Artwork is very decent! Check them out.

Samples from their free comics section:






Note: I am not affiliated in any way with Palcomix. All rights reserved to the original artists.

Cloppers


Cloppers...the Dark Side of the Brony Fandom. What's a Brony?! Are you serious? If you don't know, it's an adult fan of the show My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic that came out in 2010 on the Hub.

Monday, August 26, 2013

What the Hell is Cursing?

I know that I usually post on sex and how the church has gotten it all wrong. However, sex isn't the only thing that religion has screwed up on.

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Nude Is Not Lewd, or...Naked and Not Ashamed

I remember the first time I ventured to go to a nudist colony. I went alone (of course) but decided first I needed some supplies. Dropped by the drug store along the way to pick up some sunscreen (very important as some parts of my body had not seen the sun in a long time), made sure I had a good pair of flip flops, a towel...and some courage. I was going to be seen NAKED by all of the people in that place. I prayed that I didn't run into anyone I knew while I was there. That would have been too embarrassing! Now why was I going in the first place?

Friday, August 16, 2013

Mormon Sexual Repression

The churches that I attended were not Mormon, but from what I've found out about them, I'm glad to never have gone to one. This couple shares their experiences of guilt, shame and resentment from years of being in the Mormon church. From iamanexmormon.com.




TGIF!

It's been a tough week...but guess what? It's Friday! Have some GIFs!

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Regret at waiting

It looks like the preachers selling the purity propaganda are wrong (big surprise). There's this fabrication within the purity culture that goes like this: if you save yourself for marriage, you will have mind-blowing sex and live happily ever after. Not so for quite a few people. Take Jessica Ciencin Henriquez's article "My Virginity Mistake" on the Salon website. She says the opposite of the purity culture's message - that waiting for marriage actually led to her divorce.

Sunday, August 11, 2013

For the Bible Tells Me So

Just saw this documentary. Eye-opening and moving. It documents the stories of Christian families who find out one of their children is gay. They go from near rejection of their own, to indifference, and some actually come to embrace their child and realize that this is what and who they were meant to be. Everyone should watch this film, even if you don't agree with it. Actually, it's those that take a hard stance against homosexuality and preach that it's an 'abomination' and that all homosexuals have a one-way ticket to hell that need to see this the most.

Saturday, August 10, 2013

The Bible Belt and Porn Connection

I heard somewhere that the people in what's known as the "Bible Belt" (aka, the Red states) consume just as much, if not more pornography than those states that are more liberal-leaning. I did a little online searching and came up with this article which confirmed it.

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Just What Exactly Is "Fornication?"

Here's a great vid I saw just yesterday about how the meaning of the latin term "fornication," which is the closest word in English to the Greek word porneia (πορνεία), has been changed to fit a certain ideal or theology. He also goes into the meanings of other terms that we use today that are so not what they meant in ancient times. Check it out:

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Premarital sex

This is a very touchy subject. For some, like me, it would mean that one had denied him/herself, in vain - sometimes for many years. I find nothing in the Bible specifically listing premarital sex a sin, not even in the big list of sins in Leviticus 18, where the Lord details unlawful sexual sins, which include (in graphic detail) incest, bestiality and apparently homosexuality. Some people have said that just because it isn't in the list, doesn't mean it is not a sin. I disagree with that position. Who is able to determine what is a sin or not? God. Man is incapable to determine that. Sin is whatever God says it is, not what you say it is. So, if there is no law against something, it's not a sin to do it.

Sunday, August 4, 2013

Clothed vs. Unclothed

A big turn on for me is seeing attractive women with their clothes on, and then fully naked. Wish this was an option for all women I meet.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

First porn pics

So, with all that being said, the reason for putting up this blog in the first place is for me to have a place to hang my favorite porn pics for everyone to see. It's too bad that I deleted my old stuff multiple times in order to be "righteous" and "pure." That pisses me the hell off. But, I'm moving forward. I'll be posting porn that I've gathered from the interwebs on a regular basis. Enjoy!

The Purity Culture

I am no longer a virgin. I’ve had sex with a few people and I don’t care to let people know how old I was when I “lost” it. I don’t regret having sex – I regret waiting. When I think back to all of the frustration I was put through, it infuriates me. This “purity culture” is bullshit. What kind of perverted crap is this when 8-year-old girls pledge their vaginas to their daddies? Don’t believe me? Watch The Virgin Daughters. Besides, there’s nothing in the Bible that says you can’t fantisize, watch porn, or masturbate. They say it does, but it doesn’t. And they’ll use the topic of lust being a sin to prove their point.

Background, Part IV

I did some research on the ICOC some time after I left, just out of curiosity. My Google search led me to the Reveal website (www.reveal.org) and it stated things that some people were saying about that church all along – that it qualified as a cult!

Background, Part III

You would think that things would have been better once I got home. I mean externally it did, but inside I still had a deep longing to be with a girl. Did I mention that the church considered everyone else, even Christians that were not going to their church “lost?” So, they would not let people date outside of the ICOC. This was a problem, as it limited the choices of women. I grew very horny at times, not having an outlet. I eventually moved to a different area to pursue a nursing degree, while still attending the ICOC in that area (remember, they taught that anyone that wasn’t a part of their church was going to hell). The people at that place were, frankly, a bunch of assholes. My enthusiasm hit an all-time low.  I fell into depression. After 7 years, I finally left that church, hating God and vowing never to go near another church again. How did I go from being a hardcore “Disciple” to being almost an atheist? 

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Background, Part II

News of our impending deployment to Iraq came as a shock to no one. Still, one cannot be totally prepared for something such as going to fight a war. We originally were to be deployed to Afghanistan, however, that got cancelled for some reason and we were placed on stand-by to be deployed to Iraq.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Background, Part I

I grew up kinda religious. Went to Catholic mass every once in a while as a child. Didn’t have too much church growing up but I always believed there was a God. I remember going to this Baptist church once when I was about 15 or 16 with my mom. There I uttered (under the guidance of some dude because I had no idea what I was doing), the “sinner’s prayer.”

Monday, July 8, 2013

Introduction

Hi, folks! I made this blog after learning some things about "scripture" and the Christian faith that were, to put it plainly, shocking to me. I'll tell you a little about my personal history a little later, but suffice it to say right now that what we've always been told at church, especially in regards to sex, have been flat-out lies. I'll explain more as I continue writing. More to come.