Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Masturbation

I love to masturbate! If that wasn't emphatic enough, let me say it again. I love masturbation! I love everything about it. I like talking about it. I like doing it. I like seeing both men and women do it. I'm even collecting solo sex toys for men (there's not that many out there). I primarily use a Fleshlight, but if I'm in the mood, I also like to occassionally experiment with anal play (butt plugs and dildos).

Here is a video for you Christians that think masturbation is a "sin." I used to believe that, too, and it caused me years of pain and suffering - not to mention needless guilt - as I struggled with my own strong sex drive.



As far back as I can remember, I've always been fond of fondling myself. I would lay on my back in bed, with my two brothers sleeping on either side of me, and I would quietly slide my pants and underwear down to my ankles, and touch myself. I would play with my then pinky-sized penis, and would roll my balls in between my fingers and how good that felt, even prior to reaching puberty. I would run my fingers down the shaft of my tiny "wee-wee" and pull my foreskin back and fully expose my glans. It was so sensitive to the touch. I knew by then what circumcision was and wondered how people that were circumcised dealt with the sensitivity. I mean, it was just "out there" all the time. I can remember the first time I had an orgasm. I think it was after I started watching porn movies that my brother acquired - around the age of 12 or 13. Anyway, I was sitting on the toilet and I was touching myself. I imagined what it would be like to have sex with a girl, so I took my hand and curled it into the shape of a vagina (amazing how I instinctively knew how to do this). I started to rub my penis up and down. It felt so good. I kept on doing it and I could feel something deep inside my loins. I kept it up until I felt something, then braced as I had my first-ever orgasm. It was intense! I've never felt anything like that before. I couldn't remember if any semen came out (probably just a drop or two). Over the course of the next few years, I masturbated constantly, at least every week, usually every couple of days. Then, when I turned 21, I sadly joined a church that disapproved of masturbating (as most of them wrongly do), citing it as "impurity." I stopped masturbating for 2 years straight. Then, I did it again. I slipped up. And I felt so much guilt and shame over it. The next five years after that, I have had a love-hate relationship with it. Now, I've learned that it's natural, normal, and beautiful - and I do it whenever I can. I love it. Love it! Love it! Love it! And I'm never going to stop. Especially now that I know that the Bible verses cited against masturbation are taken out of context (no surprise there).